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2010-04-02T09:21:00.000-05:00

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2010-01-03T18:09:00.000-06:00

Hello ladies! I have done a lot of thinking- and with the coming of the new year, I need a new beginning. I believe truly, in order for myself to approach food normally, food blogging isn't going to continue to be a positive thing for me. Now, I know for many of you it is a wonderful asset to your recovery, and I encourage you to continue with it. But for me, I just have no love for it anymore. I don't really like thinking about blogging, what meals to put together, and taking pictures, every.single.day. I have just lost my passion, it has become more stressful than an enjoyment. I need some time to pull everything together, and finally adjust to this new way of life. Awhile back I thought about switching over to a new site- I put it together and everything, and one day I will come back. But this blog, is dunzo (sorry to the laguna reference!). I know a lot of you find my posts and meals inspirational, and I still want to help you. You can contact me any day, and any time at kfred622@gmail.com I still have all of you on google reader, expect many comments from me, because I do love you all!

<3

new years eve!

2009-12-31T09:30:00.000-06:00

Happy New Years Eve! What do you all have planned today?! A friend and I are just laying low- We're going to Noodles&Company for dinner, and then watching movies! I used to be a "party girl" but that just isn't my scene anymore. I'm much more of a homebody! I have to run some errands this morning, but after that it's pj's, popcorn, and hot chocolate!

Last night my mom and I had a change of plans- dinner didn't exactly work out! So I made us turkey hot dogs + Sweet potato fries!

Carbs, protein & fat!

Heated dark chocolate granola cookie! (it was a lot bigger than it looks!)

Same mixture of oats + vanilla granola this time! :)

Its nice- when I wake up like 30 minutes later, there's sunshine for prettier pictures!!

What are your resolutions last year? Last year mine were, workout every day, no dessert and only whole wheat! woww... sad!

2010 Resolutions

-Save money for college

-Don't sweat the small stuff

-Continue rejecting the calorie counting mindset

-Relax in food situations

-Hangout with friends more

-Read every day

-Drink more water

-Slowly weed out artificial sweeteners(stevia is OK) + HFCS

(my dietician said they might be the cause of my headaches)

-Mix up my food, breakfasts especially!

My family is visiting friday + saturday, and we have our traditional dinner @ an italian restaurant. I'm planning to go, and take my new meal plan with me. This is the restaurant I got sick from last year (as mentioned awhile ago. I don't know how I feel about eating pizza again... Maybe a chicken salad, or chicken pasta? Hmm.. I won't take pictures, but i'll let you know! I'll try to post, but if not I'll talk to you all on Sunday!!

not exactly the best day!

2009-12-30T15:11:00.000-06:00

Ughhh.. so today started out just wonderful! I got called into work for an 11-4 shift, (keep in mind it takes about 35 minutes to drive there) and I get there- and an hour later they send me home! gah. such a waste of time!!!!! other than that, I guess my day is okay.

So you all had lovely guesses for my "surprise" gift but.... it is...

A SNUGGIE!

Don't mind my shower hair + no makeup! This thing is sooo nice for reading + blogging. It keeps my arms nice and warm, :)

SO I guess you are all wondering about my meal plan. as I said it is all about "balance".. a balance of different food groups.. Its not a meal plan per say, just a rough guide. At meals I need to have 3 food groups, and 2 groups at a snack!

This is still a staple snack for me! and it counts as "balanced snack" grain + protein/dairy

(it does not need to be measured, because no matter how much granola I add- it's still a grain, you see?)

Pita pizza!!! Crust=grain, Cheese= protein/dairy, Tomato sauce+apple= fruits and veggies (in the "natural vitamin" group...) You see?! Its pretty simple

This shall be called "Caramel latte oatmeal"

Caramel latte biscotti + oats.

What's in my oatmeal? Well, I always used to cook it with water, but to add a 3rd group, I started cooking it with milk. I don't like it as much, but whateverrr.

Sooo.. 1/2 oats, wheat germ, cinnamon, biscotti =Carbs!

Peanut butter= fat/protein

milk= dairy/protein

Peanut butter sandwich (carb + protein/fat)

Goldfish(carb)

clemmie (fruit)

cottage cheese (protein/dairy/fat)

its sooo easy! See tonight i'm going out to dinner! I'm planning on ordering a chicken wrap with fries..

Chicken wrap w/ ranch (Carb, protein, fat)

oven baked fries (Carb, fat)

although I know its higher in calories, nutritional wise it is "balanced" which right now, is all that matters. :)

Have a wonderful day!

UPDATE!

2009-12-29T13:16:00.000-06:00

Hey girls! Thank you so much for all of the support! Sorry I didn't post last night, I got called into work at the last minute and I was exhausted when I got home!! Anyways, my appointment went well today! My new dietician gave me a great, unstructured food plan! Ovb. no calorie counting here! I just need to find "balance" of healthy whole foods! :) It seems like everything will go well, its pretty much what I was already doing, but just a little more! :) Alrighttt, well Im going to go relax and watch some TV! Byee loves <3

Honesty

2009-12-28T08:17:00.001-06:00

As many of you might already know, a few weeks ago I talked about gaining weight. I did gain those last few pounds (they were probably all chocolate! haha..) But reaching my "goal weight" started a whole new problem. I have been struggling. No, I haven't lost weight. I have had a completely different struggle all in its own. Ever since my problems started, I was a avid calorie counter. After I saw a Dietician I counted food groups. Sadly, I have reverted back to calorie counting. The number I have stayed at is a number to maintain my current weight. I have met that "goal" every day. The thing is, I don't want to have a "goal", I don't want to plan meals, I don't want it to be something to stress over. Eating should be natural and enjoyed. When did I loose this? I am happy with my weight and everything, but I think the whole reason behind counting is that I dont wait to GAIN or LOOSE weight. How can I trust my mind, and my body to know what is right? I don't know what "normal eating" is. Because of this, I have been searching for a different dietician to see. I have an appointment tomorrow. I think this would be the answers to all my problems. Someone who knows that they are talking about. The funny thing is, my new dietician is a guy! I never thought that would happen. But in my opinion, I think a guy would be a lot more upfront and helpful (no offense to us girls), but I've always preferred male doctors!

WHEW! I had to get that off my chest.

So what have you all been eating? My family has been stuck with a million leftovers! As I mentioned before, when my grandma cooked beef, I brought chicken! I don't like to eat a lot of meat in one sitting (it still kinda gives me the creeps) so I have enough chicken for about a week! Last night I wanted to try something different!

I had a sandwich like this in a restaurant, and I loved it! I got 2 slices of bread. 4 OZ (cooked) chicken, Tomato sauce, and 1 OZ cheese! I just broiled it in the oven for a few minutes, and it was gooood to go!

and of course, I always start my days with oatmeal! I don't know what I'll do in the summer!

can you see the difference between fake and natural lighting?

I still haven't shown you guys a couple of my presents! Can you guess what they are? I'll *use* one later tonight!

have an amazing monday!

OKAYYY....

2009-12-26T09:31:00.000-06:00

So I have a few hours before I drag my butt to work.. (:

No food pictures for you all.. but I do have some christmas presents!!! :)

A yoga mat!!! I've been doing yoga without one, and hopefully it will be a lot easier now! :)

My mom knows me tooo well. A new coffee mug, :) it was filled with peppermint bark!!!

A Vera Bradley purse!!!

A Vera Bradley school bag!!

A Vera Bradley lanyard and id holder. Do you see a slight pattern/obsession here?

BOOOKS!!!!!!!!!! I love reading! These will keep me busy for like a month? JK JK

One tree hill SEASON SIX, and The OC Season 1!

I also have an obsession with Lucas Scott.... :)

I also got a lot of gift cards!!!! :)

I also have a few tricks up my sleeve (AKA non-pictured presents!) I promise to give you a little laugh when I get back!

I have to work from 12 UNTIL 8 today! Hopefully I won't kill annoying customers!

Christmas went a tad bit better than what I expected, although the food did cause me a lot of stress. We had a brunch planned at 11, but I woke up at 7.. and I couldn't wait to eat. I had a typical oatmeal bowl.. and we trudged off to my grandmas! We had a huge brunch, I wasn't too hungry, but I ate anyways. Everyone had massive breakfasts while I only had 2 mini bagels, fruit salad, scrambled eggs ( I don't like breakfast meats) and therefore noone else was hungry all day.. but I like to eat ever 3 hours or so, and my grandma had basically NOTHING I could eat. but whatever, I made it through and ate a lot when I got home! Hope everyone else made it through yesterday! have a fabulous weekend. I'll be back on monday!

Merry Christmas!

2009-12-25T17:10:00.000-06:00

I just wanted to wish you all the best today! I hope you got everything you asked for, and more! I'll be working LONG hours both tomorrow and sunday, so I shall be back on monday! Have a fabulous weekend!

Merry Christmas (eve) !

2009-12-24T08:21:00.001-06:00

This is so crazy! its the first year that it doesn't feel like Christmas! I just got out of school on TUESDAY! I normally get out like a week before.. I am stressing out a bit from the holidays- most likely along with most of you. My (extended) family and I don't exactly see eye-to-eye. I am literally everything they are not. I have one of the most liberal/democratic person you will ever meet. While my extended family are very, very, republican. They hunt, and I hate the idea of eating meat (even though I have to now.), they support the war and send money to the government, and I've gone to anti-war rallies. Obviously I care about them because they are family- they just are very hurtful sometimes. My grandma gets upset when I bring my own food to their dinners. They are making this beef thing, and I don't eat red meat- and therefore I am bringing chicken. But that's not okay with her, she gets offended because I won't eat her food. ANYWAYS- on a lighter note, my breakfast yesterday was verrry typical.

Oatmeal, PB, Cereal bar..

Lunch:

Turkey sandwich, Pretzels, String Cheese, Clemmie, Peppermint bark!

Dinner:

2 OZ WW pasta, tomato sauce, 1 OZ cheese. + a zillion of unpictured garlic bread!

Dessert:

AT LEAST 5 of these babies! sooo good.

My snacks went unpictured, just think normal: bars, yogurt + granola...

Well I'm off to get things ready for christmas eve! Since its the holidays, I am working BOTH saturday + sunday, the earliest I'll be back is most likely next monday.. but I'll try to post soon! also, I won't be taking pictures of "family" dinners/ breakfasts, they'll think I am crazy when I whip out my camera, :) hahaa

Have a wonderful holiday, enjoy it, and have fun with your families!

I survived!!!!

2009-12-22T20:15:00.002-06:00

Yes, although I am physically and mentally drained; I survived. 4/6 Final grades have been posted, and I have gotten all A's so far. I spent so much time studying, and it really paid off!! I'm so excited for the road ahead of me. College! I've ordered my books for next semester ( a SERIOUS dent in my wallet..) and I'll be working like a crazy person! Think Saturday 12-8, Sunday 1-6... and it just goes on! But you know what? I'm not complaining. I have a job! weeellll..

here's my BREAKFAST(one of the last couple days):

Yes, I STILL am eating Honey Sunshine oats, and NO it NEVER gets old :)

SNACKS:

Yogurt + Granola

Yogurt + crushed Nature Valley bar

Lunchh yesterday!:

Kashi Crackers, PB sandwich, clemmie, and cottage cheese! :)

Dinners:

PB english muffin + eggs&cheese

Pita Pizza + Apple

REVIEW!:

Pepperidge Farm Granola Cookies!

MMM. These cookies have HUGE chunks of dark chocolate. (from my taste, maybe like 60%?) They are good.. the flavors really complement themselves! I love to eat them plain, crush them in yogurt, or put in oats! I HIGHLY recommend these. They are suuuuper good. A 9/10!

I am off to watch remember the titans! have a awesome night, :)

absent

2009-12-19T09:21:00.001-06:00

As much as I wish I could've been absent from school, I've been absent from here and I'm sorry. I've still kept up with your lives, and read your entries.. I just haven't been here to do my own.

I have been eating a lot of oatmeal! :)

Oatmeal with crumbled Nature Valley nut clusters :)

1/2 cup oats, 2 TBSP wheat germ, 1 TBSP peanut butter, crumbled Kashi cereal bar!

I've also been eating a lot of snacks!

^ that, turned into....

This :)

My snacks lately have been like a FOURTH meal! :) haha

Lunch yesterday:

3 OZ cheese in a pita. Potato chips x3, Clementine, and goldfish colors :) I love channeling eats from my childhood :)

I also treated myself to Subway! too much studying, and not enough time to make food!! Hahahah

Flatbread w/ turkey cheese and veggies! + 1.5 ounces of sunchips (from the bag..)

Trust me I have been eating a lot more, but I haven't taken a lot of pictures! Think: tons of granola bars, yogurt, fruit, and CHOCOLATE!!! :D

I'll be done with school related sh!t on tuesday.. so Ill hopefully be back by then.. or before, if you're lucky (: haha jk!

I'm off to study, watch old one tree hill, and 90210(the original) episodes

sluggish.

2009-12-15T19:54:00.000-06:00

I've definitely been feeling sluggish these past two days. Its the last week of high school (forever!) for me, and I just can't seem to make it! I can't concentrate, I don't feel like studying for finals, I just want to sit around and read! Not. good. I kept my grades up so high this semester, then even if I didn't take the final AT ALL I'd still pass. but of course, not with an A. Im sure this weekend i'll buckle down and really study.... but I just don't know :/ I'm ready to be doneee!
Also- major bummer! None of my shows are on!!! I feel so lost without them! crazy, right?
Soooo... what have I been eating?

Breakfast for dinner on sunday! (scrambled eggs w/ BROC and cheese) PB toast and an orange!

Lotss of sweets...

I see that eating high calorie sweets is the easiest way to gain weight.. but honestly.. I am all sugared out! I guess I was just meant to eat healthy.. my tummy rejects uber sweetness now :( That's alright. Dark chocolate and peanut butter NEVER fail me, :)

Sooo.. what did I eat for dessert tonight? Well, I wanted something STABLE and not too sugary so my tummy will go to sleep happy :)

APPLE PB SANDWICHES! Theres two in the other corner (unpictured) so this is easy as pie... just slather 2 TBSP on a large apple, and eat up!

Posting might be a bit sporadic this week. I really have to study; as much as I don't want too, I must.

Have a lovely night!

pizza, :)

2009-12-13T16:48:00.000-06:00

Last year on new years day I went to pizza hut with my mom. I was a vegetarian at the time, so I ordered a cheese pizza. I woke the next morning with food poisoning! Disgusting, I was throwing up all day. I haven't eaten pizza out since. I think a I used my "sickness" as an excuse to not eat pizza at all.. (except homemade and frozen...) So last night, at my friends party.. I stepped out of my comfort zone and had a couple slices of cheeese pizza! and guess what? I survived. :)

This morning I ate my typical oatmeal bowl. (no picture, you must get bored of the same thing!)

but I did have something newww!

a cutie clementine

I loooove oranges, but I am so bad at peeling them!! These clementines were so easy to peel, and tasted ALMOST like a orange! :)

My morning snack consisted of chocolate, yes chocolate! I don't care if it's 10 in the morning or 10 at night, there is ALWAYS time for chocolate :)

"LU" dark chocolate biscuits (I had 2 + yogurt) soooo good! :)

Lunch today consisted of chicken salad (made with laughing cow) in a WW Pita w/ a serving of wheat thins and a string cheese :)

yumm! with celery, of course :)

I had A LOT of review packets to do today, so I basically sat on the couch ALL day, listening to music and eating sunchips :)

Im watching Degrassi right now :) I loved the old shows so much better! but the new characters are just alright.. :/

I also have a question for you all! What granola do you use?! I have been eating my Quaker. I am almost out. I don't like it that much, so I wont buy it again! My fav. is Cascadian Farm cinnamon raisin (but I take the raisins out.. totally defeats the purpose!) I like natures path peanut butter A LOT, but I want to try something new! has anyone tried their pumpkin flax, or agave plus?!? or what other brands do you recommend?

weekend!

2009-12-12T16:39:00.000-06:00

Aaaah :) I am soo happy that it is Saturday! This past week went by so slow! :( So you know how I mentioned that I ALWAYS eat the same breakfast?! Well, on Friday I mixed it up a bit!

WW english muffin, 1 TBSP peanut butter, yogurt + granola (you can't see it!)

It was good when I ate it.. but it did not keep me full AT ALL! I was so surprised! I used to eat this allll the time over the summer, but oatmeal is so much more filling!

I had to work last night, and I had pancakes for dinner! (sorry no pic, I was so hungry I forgot!)

This morning I had to volunteer at "breakfast with santa" so they had eggs and toast there! I had a slice of toast with jam, and some eggs! I was STARVED when I got home, so I made a nice lunch!

WW Bread, turkey mayo + cheese PANINI! Kashi cheddar crackers! and string cheese :) I DID NOT get this string cheese because it is "weight watchers" I got it because I had a 2 dollar off coupon. It has the same stats as the other one I get, just a diff. name :)

After lunch we ran to the grocery store, I was low on lots of stuff!! afterwards I had a typical snack :

This time I added H2H, you can't see it.. BUT ITS IN THERE :) and I had 1/2 of a english muffin- I was hungryyyy!

Tonight I am off to a friends house for her birthday. She's ordering pizza (not my favorite) so I'll have a mini dinner before, and have a piece or two once I get there :)

Have an AMAZING weekend!!!!!

Typical

2009-12-10T18:35:00.000-06:00

BRR! It was FRIGID here today. Think like -15 windchills :( I was definitely bundled up today! hahaha. So you might wonder why I never post my breakfast? I have basically the same thing ever single day...

1/2 cup oatmeal, cinnamon, 1 TBSP peanut butter or homemade almond butter. I usually use toppings of a) Granola pictured today b) cereal bar c) honey sunshine d) bran vitamuffin.

I don't like eating cold cereal during the winter! I like something hot to warm me up!! :)

My after school snack is normally the same thing, too.

yogurt with quaker granola

If I mix it up I normally show you, :)

dinner tonight we had CHICKEN FAJITAS. Yesssss... chicken cooked with onions, red and green peppers!

With cheese and an apple (and unpictured glass of m-i-l-k)

What is my cookie of choice tonight?!

Just like the snowman one, but with sprinkles!

I am TOTALLY in the holiday spirit! I just wish it would be a TAD bit warmer!! :D

I'm off to do some studying, watch csi, take a bath (does anyone else take a bath anymore? I love them!) and go to bed!

Do you normally eat the same breakfasts every day? or mix it up?!

School

2009-12-09T18:51:00.000-06:00

.....sucks! I deff. had school today, which was a MAJOR disappointment. I live right near Lake Michigan so all we got was sleet.. instead of snow!

I bet some of you are wondering what I am doing, based on what I mentioned here. I decided that I am going to get my BMI past the 18.5 benchmark. I am aiming for around 19-19.5. I am going to take this SLOWLY. Therefore I am not going to overstuff myself and be completely uncomfortable as happened in the past. I wanted to remind all you that I am considered to have a healthy weight. But in my mind, I'd rather be over the benchmark than right at it. So, how exactly am I doing this? When I originally met with my nutritionist she had me counting food groups. I liked the plan of eating healthy foods- just MORE of them, you know? So here's how it will go. I will eat my normal meals, but add more nutritious things to it (fats, proteins, carbs) so therefore, no counting calories. I already have a "treat" every day, but I will be eating a lot more dark chocolate daily- healthy fats & antioxidants. And you can't forget holiday cookies! ;)

So what was my dinner last night?

Whole wheat english muffins, broiled with tomatoes and cheese (2 OZ rather than 1), Alexia Fries, Un-pictured apple and milk(2%, fat, protein). For maintenance I normally had to have one dairy at every meal, but I will be having 2 at most meals.

Dinner tonight:

2 oz WW Shell pasta, Marinara, 1 OZ cheese

HUGE APPLE! (my fav.)

And I've been digging into the cookie stash....

I already ate his nose, and a choco chip fell off! :( He was very delicious.

I will be having milk and cookies while watching LIFEEETIME!

Did anyone have a snow day today?!

....and what is your favorite type of holiday cookie?

I like the cookies pictured above, I love sugar cookies, chocolate chip, gingerbread, my nana makes AMAZING cinnamon sugar cookies- in the shape of snowflakes!!!

The one time..

2009-12-08T15:20:00.002-06:00

I actually WANT it to snow.. it doesn't. We were supposed to get a major snowstorm tonight (meaning a snow day..) and we are only supposed to get sleet now! gaaaaaah. totally ruined my day. Anyways, anyone watch gossip girl last night?! INTENSE! I totally want Serena to end up with Nate!!! He's a hottie ;) So how did I spend my night last night?! Well of course, watching gossip girl and eating this lovely bowl:

A good old favorite. Skinny cow(hate the name) ice cream sandwich with some good ol' vanilla ice cream. Mashed and mixed together :) Just like cookies and cream! and then I CRASHED! I don't know why, but I was so exhausted. This morning I actually turned off my alarm and went back to sleep! I haven't done that in FOREVER. I am totally praying (pray for me) that I have a snow day, then I can sleep all day! haha :)

This morning I was coooold! I had a bowl of oatmeal, like I do every day

1/2 cup oats, Kashi strawberry cereal bar, 2 TBSP peanut butter (mixed in)

up reaaaal close:

yummmmm :)

Well after that, I was off to school! I bring the same lunch almost every day.. so I see no need in taking a picture of it! I just got home like 30 minutes ago, and am currently eating..

1/2 cup cottage cheese

Kelloggs all bran garlic crackers!

Well, Im off to do some homework, do some type of snow dance, pray a little more, make dinner, and watch 90210! :)

Have a lovely day!

SNOW DAY!?!?!

2009-12-07T19:12:00.003-06:00

I only wish.. It would seriously be my dream come true! tomorrow night we are supposed to get a lot of snow... (6+ inches) I will seriously do a snow dance or something! haha. I doubt we will have a snow day.. my school wouldn't even close for a nuclear war! (exaggerating, I know.) I haven't been up to much lately. Homework and lying around. 11 more days of high school!!!! I'm so excited! Last night I had my typical "breakfast for dinner" but I mixed it up a bit :)

Hope that isn't blurry. I had a tortilla (a big one, that's a dinner plate it is on..) with scrambled eggs & SHARP cheddar cheese! (my fav.) It was good. Eating wraps sometimes makes me angry! I always somehow rip the tortilla and everything falls out! oh well, that's what forks are for!

DID ANYONE WATCH DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES LAST NIGHT?!?!?! I cannot believe it! and I am soooo mad they didn't show next week's preview! I want to know who died! aaah. the suspense is building!!!

Tonight for dinner, I had another favorite! Wild Harvest Organic Margherita pizza!

This brand is one of the FEW organic brans that Jewel offers.. so I take advantage of it!

*if anyone is triggered by clothes sizes, weight, BMI, or stories.. please don't read below.*

For those of you who read my blog originally. You would know I have struggled with my weight. Im about to get VERY personal.. but you know what?! I'm okay with it. I feel that people here would understand, and be helpful. Here it goes. I am a current senior (i am saying this to give a point of reference). My sophomore year of high school was quite the roller coaster. I was hanging out with the wrong crowd, and doing the wrong things. I was on the verge of depression, a long with other things. I went to the doctor and I was diagnosed with PMDD (premenstrual dysphoric disorder) My emotions were all over the place, but I realized it was around "my time of the month". I was put on yaz birth control(and still on it). I started it around christmastime. It really helped all of my emotional and physical issues. I pushed all of the negative influences, and negative people out of my life. Things were going great. Birth control can have two effects on people gain weight, or loose it. I was in the category of weight gain. I gained about 10-15 pounds. My cup size went up 2 sizes, and I was completely uncomfortable (keep in mind, I ate the same, and was still active. It was all because of the pill). I became okay with it. I accepted myself for who I was.. because being myself was just enough. I still retained a couple close friends.. but one betrayed me. It was horrible, her and her friends were always calling me fat.. just to be mean (keep in mind, being 5'9 I only weighed around 140/145, which is completely healthy BTW). It really affected me. I just pushed it out of my mind.. Fast forward to mid-junior year. I decided to become a vegetarian, for animal rights reasons. Sound great?! keep reading... I started eating no meat, and incorporating more healthy foods. I began working out in moderation. I felt great, because I lost all the water weight that I gained. But I thought "why can't I do more?" I began restricting, only eating about 1400 calories a day ( my RMR at the time as 1500.. so I wasn't even eating enough to survive) and I was working out constantly. I saw it as a "lifestyle" change. I thought it was great. This went on from second semester junior year to mid-summer(around when my blog started.) I went to my "pre school checkup" And I was underweight. I was shocked "how could I get so far?" I am not posting my lowest weight. But my BMI was 17.1 I was referred to a nutritionist. I saw her TWICE, and only twice. First, she had me on a meal plan ( I gained a lot of weight back after this appt.), and I went back two months later. At that point I had about 2-3 pounds to gain to be at 18.5 (lowest healthy choice)(and I gained it.).. She said I was "doing great" and whatever. I never got any other help in any respect. Never saw a therapist. Doctor never called. They assumed I could do it all on my own. And I did. As I said before, I was never diagnosed with a disorder. Which is why I think they didn't go further. I am over the degrading and the restricting, and I am focused on living life. I haven't had any distorted thoughts since "before" and I am happy to say that I have stayed with maintenance. The one last thing is, I haven't gained any weight then was last required.. My bmi is a 18.5-the lowest I could be while still being considered "Healthy". What triggered all of this? The pants I bought yesterday were TWO sizes smaller than I used to wear, and are still kinda big. I am on the mindset right now that I need to gain a little more weight. How much? I don't know. Honestly, this is where I am looking for your advice. I hate the process of gaining weight, and constantly "stuffing my face". I am 95% sure its what I need to do. What is your opinion on this? If you were me, what would you do?

I am sorry if I got to personal at all, but I have felt the need for a LONG time just to write everything down, and get everything out. Thank you for listening.

HOT

2009-12-06T12:52:00.001-06:00

I have only been eating HOT food's lately. I am not ready for winter! It was such an unwelcomed surprise for my body. I have been freeeezing ever since the temp went below 30!! Yesterday for lunch I had a grilled cheese (on the sandwich maker) and tomato soup!

Later in the afternoon my mom and I went to the mall! We needed to return some less than stellar black friday buys, and I needed new jeans. Ever since I gained weight, I never bought new jeans! I just made the most out of what I had.. (when I lost weight I never really bought new jeans then either) but I was in desperate need of better fitting jeans. And I found them!! They fit awesome, and it makes me feel so much better :) We ate in the food court..

Have you ever tried subway's flatbread sandwiches?! They are SOO good.

I got it toasted with turkey, cheese, lettuce and green peppers!

and I ate half of my mom's steak fries! (sooo good....)

I've just been relaxing today nothing much to do.. and its nice to have time to yourself! I am running to Plato's closet with a friend later to sell my old jeans. I hope you ladies have a fabulous day!

If and of you gals gained weight (or lost it!) how long did you wait to treat yourself to new jeans?

Christmas Vacation.

2009-12-04T20:22:00.000-06:00

If only... I've got two more weeks, and then I AM DONE! I cannot wait. I just have to get finished with papers, tests, and finals. Breathe in, Breathe out. I was super busy last night. I had 2 tests to study for, and a paper to write! I am sorry for being AWOL. I have been eating well though, of course. Intense studying calls for amazing snacks to keep me sane!!!

Yesterday morning I started with something different ( I know, no oatmeal) In the cold/winter I always crave hot foods.. so cereal doesn't cut it.

Thomas whole wheat bagel, with peanut butter, of course!

I looove these bagel's! Its hard to find whole wheat new york style bagels (my favorite!!!)

I've been eating decent snacks, too.. :

Cottage Cheese w/ Jewel brand Honey Wheat pretzels!

When it gets cold outside, I CRAVE mac and cheese! Last night I had a mad craving for some.. but we had NOTHING not even a kraft box!!! so I created my own!

2 oz pasta shape of choice (i chose spiral.. my fav.)

2 LC cheese wedges

1/8 cup of milk.

Easiest and healthiest mac and cheese of my life!

Basically you cook the noodles. While the noodles are cooking, mush up the 2 wedges in a microwave safe bowl.. add the milk to the mixture, stir a little and micro for 30 secs. (you might hear popping, that's normal) and voila! you have a cheese sauce. After the pasta is cooked and drained, add the sauce to the noodles and there's your dinner!

I used the regular LC not the light. If you use the light you might have to microwave longer, because its harder to melt cheese with less fat!!!!

Another craving I have during cold weather is pancakes!!!!

I used Hungry Man wheat pancakes. I added cinnamon and DOUSED them in SF maple syrup! yummmmmm :) I love winter, it has the best food!

Well, I am off to go relax, read a book and GO TO SLEEP EARLY! have a lovely weekend!!!

College Student!

2009-12-02T15:51:00.000-06:00

So I am officially registered for COLLEGE classes next semester! I am currently in high school, but I am graduating this december (as some of you may already know..) Anyways, I started this morning with a nice, warm bowl of oats :)

1/2 cup oats, 1 cup water, spoonful of PB (mixed in, of course) and granola!!! I love the combo of crunchy/creamy!

I had a super long day today.. I had to go to this stupid "Freshman Orientation" which took ALL DAY. At least I got to choose my classes and get a free lunch. I hate cafeteria food... it gives me the creeps. You don't know how long that stuff has been sitting out there, and if its expired or not! But anyways, I had a grilled cheese and smartfood popcorn! I came home, exhausted.. and had a little snack

Celery + LC

That definitely didn't satisfy my hunger.. I had yogurt and crackers afterwards :)

I never post my dinners because I usually have a frozen dinner *gasp* I know...

The thing is, is that I don't have enough creativity to make my own meals! I usually have a Healthy Choice, Kashi, or Lean Cusine with an apple and milk... but I want some ideas!!!

What do you ladies make for a simple, easy, healthy dinner?! I eat pasta that I make, but thats about it :(

I would love ideas :D

Super Quickk

2009-12-01T15:55:00.001-06:00

Hey ladies!! I don't have much time for an update today, I have lotsss of homework! There is something I want to talk about! Last month I started "intuitive eating", you can read about it here. I read the book in its entirety, and tried to apply everything at once. That was a little too much.. I've been doing pretty well, but I decided that baby steps are best. This week I am working on Principal 1. (keep in mind, I am NOT using this program as a aid to weight loss, I want to maintain my weight, if not gain a little. I'm using it as an approach to a healthier relationship with food) Before I met with a nutritionist, I was counting calories like CRAZY. While seeing the nutritionist she had me counting carb points and food groups. Now I am at a healthy weight, and have been for a couple months now. Im want to eat like a normal person.. not count carbs or ANYTHING (the nutritionist had me following guidelines on my own, but she told me to do whatever I pleased when comfortable.. as long as I didn't loose weight). I have been doing this for about 3 weeks, not counting anything.. just following my intuition.

In principal 1 it is "reject the diet mentality" although I was never on a "diet" I did have the mentality, I labeled foods as "good" and "bad" and used the nutritional information as a guide to my choices. I have been working on this a great deal. If I want a cookie for my morning snack, well you know what? I'll have it.. because the body is an amazing thing.. it evens out over time if you cooperate with it. I always measured all my food too. I used measuring cups, food scales.. etc. I got sick of it, I mean whats the point? and I have stopped all of it. except for oatmeal.

I don't measure my oatmeal to keep the "portion in check" or anything like that. I like my 1:2 ratio.. 1/2 oats, 1 cup water. It gives me the consistency I like, and its satisfying (for the body and mind)

Now my question for you is: is measuring my oatmeal a diet mentality? or a personal preference?

When you make a recipe, most of the time you follow the guidelines- so it turns out right. By doing so, you are not following a diet, you are simply making a pleasurable product... thats how I see it with my oats. If I put a little extra in, so what.. I just wont be as hungry later.

So whats your opinion..? Should I continue to measure my oatmeal.. or just let it be? I'd like some advice :)

CARBS!!

2009-11-30T16:59:00.000-06:00

I love carbs... have I ever told you that?! Next to peanut butter and chocolate, carbs are my favorite thing!

I have a question for you.. What kind of bread do you use??? I don't use any "brand name" for a number of reasons.. 1) A lot of the time it is shipped across the country (bad for mother nature!) 2) icky preservatives to keep them fresh 3) at the local grocery store there aren't many organic bread brands.. and the ones that are available are often over 5 dollars. I get the fresh baked bread from Jewel!

They bake their bread every day, or every other day (I asked!) and they use all natural ingredients (which is good!) and its tasty too :)

Last night I had a very YELLOW dinner!

2 eggs scrambled (one on plate, the other on sammie.. with cheese) and an orange! Every week my family has "breakfast for dinner" I switch it up with omelettes, eggs and toast, and sammies!

I feel like I have been absent for sooo long.. I have tried so many new things.. so here's another review!

Reviewwww Time!

As I mentioned before, my local grocery store doesn't offer many organic brands.. and if they do they are EXPENSIVE! Bear naked granola (and other brands) go for about 5 dollars, and often last me only a couple weeks. A month or so ago.. I bought a different granola! Quaker Oats offers a lot of "natural granola". I am not one to buy "low fat" things, so I bought this one..

Let me tell you one crazy thing about me.. I HATE coconut.. I cannot stand it! Weird right?! Now.. when I bought this granola.. I didn't look at the ingredient list. It has both coconut, and coconut oil. And guess what? I actually liked it! There is a subtle coconut flavor.. but not enough to turn me away! It is really sweet.. so it is perfect to be paired with greek yogurt. When I use it with my sweetened yogurt.. I use less, but the crunch is still there! I give this a 8/10. I love the slivered almonds in it, I just wish it was a little less sweet

yumm. I had some today!

I hope you ladies have a wonderful night. I am off to make dinnah, shower, and ONE TREE HILL + GOSSIP GIRL (and maybe some more peppermint bark.....)

SNOWW!!

2009-11-29T16:59:00.001-06:00

We had our first flurries here today! I used to LOVE snow. I am a snowboarder (although I don't go as much as I used to). But now that I have to drive in it, I don't like it as much! I am terrified of slipping off the road. I drive like a total grandma in the winter, but I don't care! haha. I got off of work early today! it was a lovely present :)

Last night my mom and I watched a movie. I wanted a mix of salty+sweet...

popcorn and hot chocolate. Other than peppermint bark, hot chocolate is my favorite winter food!!

This morning I had a lovely bowl of oatmeal. One of my favorite combos. I shall call this "Strawberry Crumble Oats"

1/2 cup Oats

1 TBSP PB (mixed in)

1 Kashi Strawberry Cereal bar (crummmmbled)

I basically live off of everything kashi... I eat their heart to heart, and honey sunshine cereals. I have their bars and crackers A LOT... and I LOVE their pizza. Maybe I should buy some stocks?! hahahha jk

REVIEW!

I had a coupon for Nature Valley Nut Clusters.. and I decided to buy some!

I bought the honey roasted peanut

They taste just like their peanut butter granola bars. I loved it! It was a little sweet, and salty. I loved the fact that they were in the little "clusters" because you could just grab one and pop it in your mouth! They were a perfect snack for work! a 9/10!

Well.. Im off to make some english muffin egg sammies, and relax the night away! have an awesome evening!!

Do you guys ever have "Breakfast for Dinner"?

Hello Lovepies!

2009-11-28T17:56:00.000-06:00

Im back! and I promise promise promise, this time I really am!!! I've been sooo busy this past month. I know it's nooo excuse, but I just really needed to focus on schoolwork and such! but I promise this time I will stay :) I've still been reading ALL of your blogs, I haven't missed a beat, but there was noo time to post myself! I hope you didn't forget me... (:

Here's some random things about me...

Random Questions About You

First off, how are you?: Fine
Do you have a zippo?: Not anymore
Right now, is anyone talking? Who?: Elle Woods, on tv (:
Name three things that a vital for a relationship?: Trust, Respect, honesty
Could you kiss the last person you texted?: No, thats just weird
Is anything important going on at the moment?: putting up the christmas tree!
Have you been outside today?: yes
How long has it been since you were in a library?: i went last tuesday at school
Is trust an issue you have?: sometimes
Do you smoke?: Nope
Have any of your family members been to jail?: Nopee
What is your favorite holiday? Why?: HMM... I like christmas, but then again, doesn't everybody?
Is there anyone that you feel you still need some closure with?: No.. actually I just took care of that
Who is with you now?: My doggie
What did you do yesterday?: SHOPPED and worked.
Can you remember when you first learned how to read?: No
What made you fall for the person you are with now?: Im not in love with anyone
What made you feel the way you do now?: ?!?
Are you anticipating anything?: Finals
What event in your life has transformed your personality the most?: The past year
Have you ever made yourself throw up?: Nope. throwing up is the worst thing, ever.
Are there any ashtrays near you?: Noo
Do you have glasses?: YES!
Do you believe that the world will really end in 2012?: Noooo
Have you ever smoked marijuana?: Nope
When did you last drive a vehicle?: Yesterday
Your eyes are what color?: Blue
Have you ever had any teeth pulled?: YES.. worst experience ever
Do you still want to be what you wanted to be in elementary school?: Nooo
What are your favorite chips?: SUNCHIPS!
Why is your number 1, your number 1?: because my dog is awesome
Does the sound of someone else puking make you sick?: Oh jeez. yes, someone pukes around me (esp. if I smell it) im the next one
What time is it?: 554
What is the name of the last television network you watched?: Im watching Oxygen
Does anything about the future scare you?: Nooo
The last time you smiled to yourself, what were you thinking about?: I don't remember
What are you going to do now?: THIS!

and Heres my FAVORITE food of the holiday season!!!

I've been eating at least 3 a day....

Have an amazing night !

Sundayyy.

2009-10-11T08:08:00.001-05:00

Hello ladies! Sorry I haven't posted since wednesday. I've been sorta feeling under the weather- so to say. My moods have been off & all over the place, so I just needed a little time to relax! Anyways... It was homecoming weekend this weekend. I didn't go to the game (it was like 40 degrees out!) and I didn't go to the dance either, (no one to go with..). I haven't really talked about my friends much, have I? Well, that's because I really don't have a lot. But you know what? I'm okay with that. Freshman-Sophomore year I had a lot of friends. You know when you see that group of girls, and they're all such "great" friends? That was me. I was having a blast.. until they started using party drugs, and going to clubs. Really, that's not my scene. I hate drugs I think they're stupid, and a waste of money. Since then I haven't really found a group to fit in with. I sill do have friends.. just not as many as I used to. Honestly, I am very independent and I don't always need a person around. I've just been counting down until college so I can move on and meet new people. My school is filled with immature people. Almost 95% of the kids drink and do drugs every weekend.. and I just don't want to be a part of it!

WHEW! okay, lets get on with the food, right?

H2H Cereal!

Oatmeal!

English Muffins!

Random lunches...

Pizza

No pudge brownies! I didn't have any plain yogurt, so I used applesauce! It was pretty good, but I think the applesauce gave it a VERY fudgy consistency! It was good, but I think ill buy some yogurt!

Stay warm and have a fab. sunday!

Back in Black.

2009-10-07T18:06:00.000-05:00

Okay, not in black.. but you get the point (: It feels good to be on here again! I've really missed talking to everyone! I've made some major tweeks (aka the site looks completely different!) Tell me what you think :) So.. you may be wondering what I have been doing with my time?!

Spending time with my doggie :)

Rereading the twilight series (for the third time)

And you know what?! It gets better every time. You may ask why I reread it.. well since new moon is coming out on film.. i wanted to read the series again. But you know what?! After reading the series through I decided I am not seeing the movie. I know it will disappoint me, and fail to meet my expectations (just like twilight) and it will just frustrate me! I am so much happier and content with how the story plays out in my head. ( although, i really wish bella hurt jacob when she attacked him...)

and doing dreadful physics

I've also been relaxing.. alot. It feels really good :) It was nice to have some time to myself and relax after my stressful summer!

I've still been enjoying typical food....

Honey Sunshine oats! (i've been eating a lot of oatmeal! it's been super cold here..)

apples ( they are SOO good right now)

Rice dishes!

Well I hope you ladies have a fab day!!!

Question: What is your favorite thing to eat on cold days? Mine is ovb. oatmeal!

Intuitive Eating

2009-10-06T17:39:00.005-05:00

I have something I want to talk about today! These past couple weeks I have tried intuitive eating. This involves eating when you are HUNGRY (not when it's "time" to eat) and stopping when you are satisfied, not stuffed. It's been difficult, but its something that progresses over time. There's no counting, no measuring, and you eat whatever you want, whenever. If I'm ACTUALLY hungry, then i'll eat something, whereas before I would wait until it was "time" There is a lot of information on the web, I suggest you do some reading! its really inspiring, and amazing to see how your body knows exactly what it wants, and when it wants it!

Here are the ten principals from www.intuitiveeating.com

1. Reject the Diet Mentality

Throw out the diet books and magazine articles that offer you false hope of losing weight quickly, easily, and permanently. Get angry at the lies that have led you to feel as if you were a failure every time a new diet stopped working and you gained back all of the weight. If you allow even one small hope to linger that a new and better diet might be lurking around the corner, it will prevent you from being free to rediscover Intuitive Eating.

2. Honor Your Hunger

Keep your body biologically fed with adequate energy and carbohydrates. Otherwise you can trigger a primal drive to overeat. Once you reach the moment of excessive hunger, all intentions of moderate, conscious eating are fleeting and irrelevant. Learning to honor this first biological signal sets the stage for re-building trust with yourself and food.

3. Make Peace with Food

Call a truce, stop the food fight! Give yourself unconditional permission to eat. If you tell yourself that you can't or shouldn't have a particular food, it can lead to intense feelings of deprivation that build into uncontrollable cravings and, often, bingeing When you finally “give-in” to your forbidden food, eating will be experienced with such intensity, it usually results in Last Supper overeating, and overwhelming guilt.

4. Challenge the Food Police

Scream a loud "NO" to thoughts in your head that declare you're "good" for eating under 1000 calories or "bad" because you ate a piece of chocolate cake. The Food Police monitor the unreasonable rules that dieting has created . The police station is housed deep in your psyche, and its loud speaker shouts negative barbs, hopeless phrases, and guilt-provoking indictments. Chasing the Food Police away is a critical step in returning to Intuitive Eating.

5. Respect Your Fullness

Listen for the body signals that tell you that you are no longer hungry. Observe the signs that show that you're comfortably full. Pause in the middle of a meal or food and ask yourself how the food tastes, and what is your current fullness level?

6. Discover the Satisfaction Factor

The Japanese have the wisdom to promote pleasure as one of their goals of healthy living In our fury to be thin and healthy, we often overlook one of the most basic gifts of existence--the pleasure and satisfaction that can be found in the eating experience. When you eat what you really want, in an environment that is inviting and conducive, the pleasure you derive will be a powerful force in helping you feel satisfied and content. By providing this experience for yourself, you will find that it takes much less food to decide you've had "enough".

7. Honor Your Feelings Without Using Food

Find ways to comfort , nurture, distract, and resolve your issues without using food. Anxiety, loneliness, boredom, anger are emotions we all experience throughout life. Each has its own trigger, and each has its own appeasement. Food won't fix any of these feelings. It may comfort for the short term, distract from the pain, or even numb you into a food hangover. But food won't solve the problem. If anything, eating for an emotional hunger will only make you feel worse in the long run. You'll ultimately have to deal with the source of the emotion, as well as the discomfort of overeating.

8. Respect Your Body

Accept your genetic blueprint. Just as a person with a shoe size of eight would not expect to realistically squeeze into a size six, it is equally as futile (and uncomfortable) to have the same expectation with body size. But mostly, respect your body, so you can feel better about who you are. It's hard to reject the diet mentality if you are unrealistic and overly critical about your body shape.

9. Exercise--Feel the Difference

Forget militant exercise. Just get active and feel the difference. Shift your focus to how it feels to move your body, rather than the calorie burning effect of exercise. If you focus on how you feel from working out, such as energized, it can make the difference between rolling out of bed for a brisk morning walk or hitting the snooze alarm. If when you wake up, your only goal is to lose weight, it's usually not a motivating factor in that moment of time.

10 Honor Your Health

Gentle Nutrition Make food choices that honor your health and tastebuds while making you feel well. Remember that you don't have to eat a perfect diet to be healthy. You will not suddenly get a nutrient deficiency or gain weight from one snack, one meal, or one day of eating. It's what you eat consistently over time that matters, progress not perfection is what counts.

I didn't start doing this because someone told me to, I decided to try it on my own. It has reduced my stress over food, I have neither lost or gained weight, and I have had a happy medium. I know my body is at its "happy weight" because I am eating what it wants, and maintaining. I suggest you try it for a day (at least). stop eating on schedule, stop following a plan, and just eat and enjoy. Eat what you want, whether you deem it "good" or "bad" eat it because you like it, and because it tastes good! (although, I do not suggest going against doctor or nutritionists orders..)

Here's the hunger scale I follow..

HUNGER SCALE

10 - STUFFED: so full that you feel nauseous
9 - VERY UNCOMFORTABLY FULL:
you need to loosen your clothes
8 - UNCOMFORTABLY FULL: you feel bloated
7 - FULL: you feel a little bit uncomfortable
6 - PERFECTLY COMFORTABLE: you feel satisfied
5 - COMFORTABLE: you're more/less satisfied,
but could eat a little more
4 - SLIGHTLY UNCOMFORTABLE: you're just
beginning to feel signs of hunger
3 - UNCOMFORTABLE: stomach is rumbling
2 - VERY UNCOMFORTABLE: you feel irritable
& unable to concentrate
1 - WEAK & LIGHT-HEADED: your stomach acid is churning

** Begin eating when you're at a 3 or 4
** Stop at 5, if you're trying to lose weight
** Stop at 6, if you're wanting to maintain your weight

I normally eat a meal at 2.5 haha.. but I eat a snack at 3-4 depending on the day.

depending on what I am eating, how much i like it, etc.. i try to stop eating at a 6-7

everybodys different, but you got to try it and see! :)

Question: Have you ever tried this? if not, do you plan to?

I find it hard on school days, because my schedule is so mixed up, sometimes I just eat because it's the only time available. At home I follow pretty well :)

Im Back!

2009-10-05T19:04:00.001-05:00

Im back girls! sorry I've been missing! I have still been stressing about things! I started my new job, and things have cooled down. My stress over food is (almost) gone! I just wanted to let you all know that I am back!! I'll start with regular posting soon! Comment this post so I know I'm still on your reader! Please please please! I love you all

Manic (tuesday)

2009-09-15T18:28:00.000-05:00

Hello ladies! Sorry if I've been a little AWOL! I've been super busy with school stuff! I got accepted to my first college *happy dance*. Haha! Well what have you ladies been up to? Like I said, its been school, school, school! Oh- and I just got a new job! Its a cute little consignment shop! Its like 9 minutes away from my house (unlike the 45 for delias!). I am going to love it! And guess what?! My bosses are OBSESSED with twilight (both team edward, of course.) AND WE HAVE A CUTOUT OF EDWARD CULLEN! *swoon* haha, I will be kissing him goodnight every night, :)

I've been eating both NEW and OLD things!

Lets start with the new!

Chicken Fajitas

Pretzels with (melted) cheese

Whole wheat pasta, with chicken, spinach and parmesan sauce!

OLD:

Breakfast for dinner!

Cinnamon raisin english muffin (:

Chocolate chip ice cream! (with my moo spoon)

hope my eats (or edward) made your mouth water

have a fab. day!

lazy saturday :)

2009-09-12T14:09:00.000-05:00

That's exactly what this day has been! LAZY! I've been watching true blood episodes! Right now I am watching carrie! It's two here, and I'm still in my pajamas! Crazy, I know! My last day of work is tomorrow, I am so happy :) I am dreading going.. but it's just something I have to do!

Nothing too new or interesting has happened lately! I find my days boring and repetitive. I have so much homework.. so thats what 90% of my time off is spent doing.

Heres what I have been eating lately:

lots of yogurt, peanut butter, and granola!

Cereal

Oatmeal

Homemade Pizza (I was craving it! I don't know why.. I just went with it.)

Lunch Today! (peanut butter sandwich, jello.. you can figure the rest out!)

Its been really nice to take a day off, and relax! I hope you ladies have a wonderful saturday, and the rest of the week! :)

Beauty Rest

2009-09-09T20:34:00.001-05:00

Is EXACTLY what I am craving! :) I want to go to bed and sleep for hoooooours! Anyways! I forgot to tell you, but I did go see The Time Travelers Wife. I was so-so about it. The book was amazing.. it even trumps twilight in my opinion. I understand that it was such a long book, and they had to shorten it for the movie. I wish they showed more in the movie. But I was very pleased with the elements they did show! I deff. recommend both the book AND the movie! But read the book first :)

I have been enjoying a lot of things lately :)

Kashi Pizza

These two created a love-child.

Delicious! With the peanuts, carmel, and chocolate. TO DIE FOR!

and of course- honey sunshine oats :)

I started reading Julie and Julia. And I am sorry to say, I'm slightly disappointed. I am just bored... Haha, I think I'll give it a little more time!

I feel really good lately about my eating. I have been trying to make it more routine.. I still have like two pounds to go, but it just keeps getting easier!! Thank you all for sticking with me!

Have a wonderful wednesday!

Fall (:

2009-09-07T10:12:00.000-05:00

So I had a little free time today, and I decided to drop a little post :) Its the last "unofficial" day of summer, and I already have on my plaid and fall tones. :) Today is my second to last day at work. I decided to dress up a little cuter today. Here's the dress that I am wearing.

I haven't decided whether to wear my grey converse, or my brown moccasins.

I have done a couple new things in the last couple days.

1) I went for a run, It was pathetic at least. I could stay at a constant pace for more than two minutes. Most if it was spent walking. I know that my cardio is pathetic. I haven't worked out for two months, but over ti me I will be able to run :)

2) I actually ATE greek yogurt. Now, I've tried FAGE plain. Gross. Chobani Vanilla, ehh. But this time I bought chobani strawberry, I added a little sugar.. And I actually liked it. Maybe over time I will like the plain, but whoo knows :)

Now, at the cheapest price in my area, these suckers cost 1.50, whereas my dannon is .49. I think I will give myself an occasional treat of G.Y. :)

Here's what I have been eating..

Breakfast for dinner!

I've never tried this flavor before. I really really liked it. It tasted like a pastry :) It was very sweet, but not too much. It was the same stats of regular luna bars- but an extra 2g of fiber!

I hope you ladies all have a wonderful labor day. Sadly, Mine will be spent working.

I DID IT! :)

2009-09-05T19:07:00.000-05:00

I quit! It feels so relieving. I have two more shifts that I am committed to working- but after that I. AM. DONE. Now I can focus on scholarship applications, and school work! So much stress has been lifted off of my shoulders! Anyways, Since I was at the mall anyways today, I decided to stop by Gap to check out some jeans. Now I have super long legs. Half the time longs are TOO short. I feel as if my jeans don't fit right anymore since I've gained weight. So I decided to treat myself to a nice pair of gap jeans! I got the long&lean ones :) They are super cute! Here are some of my eats lately :)

Waffles.

Natural Ovens Multi grain bagel, LC cheese and yogurt :)

Turkey sandwich w/ a lot of extras :)

Sorry for the poor quality. My mom and I went out to dinner. I got a turkey and swiss sandwich on marbled rye (my favorite bread!) with some friess! Now, I am savoring every second that I can eat whatever I want, whenever I want!

Haha. how has your ladies weeks been going?!? Other than stress over school and work- my week as been fine! I finished the time travelers wife! It was so good. I was crying so hard when I finished it :( I REALLY recommend it! I am seeing the movie tomorrow, I will prob. be disappointed. I am always disappointed in movies that are made after books! Oh well, I'm sure it will be okay!!

Anyways, have a wonderful holiday weekend!!!!!

Lovin' the weather!

2009-09-02T18:12:00.001-05:00

This weather is my favorite! Cool in the morning and night.. but delightful during the day:) I can wear sweaters and not be too hot ! :) Nothing too interesting has happened lately... I am in a dilemma though. As you all know, I worked a lot over the summer. With going back to school, I have really cut my hours down. For some reason my boss just doesn't understand this fact. She is constantly scheduling me when I AM NOT AVAILABLE! I am always reminding her also... Im really getting sick and tired of it. Its stressing me out way more than it should! What should I do? Should I quit? Or suck it up?! Im leaning towards quitting.... I have honestly never quit anything in my life. At this point I am really miserable there.. and I don't know If I should suck it up.. grr...

Anyways! On to eats!

Here's what my typical school lunch is.

The Luna bar/ protein water is my morning snack. I typically have a snack (Sunchips, cookies, crackers.. etc) A turkey and cheese sandwich, or peanut butter. I have grapes and carrots.. Chocolate pudding or yogurt. It is usually boring and repetitive.. so I am not going to post it every day :) haha.

Anyways.. my dinner tonight was Chicken Parmesan ala Lean Cuisine

It definitely did not turn out how the picture looked- but it was pretty darn good. Most of their ingredients I can read, which makes me happy eating it :)

Last night I had a typical dinner for me! "Healthy" chicken fried rice!

Chicken, mixed veggies, seasoning, and brown rice! Can't forget a little bit of butter :)

Luckily tonight I did not have homework. It was nice to relax for a bit :) I hope you ladies have a fabulous rest of the day :)

Reviews

2009-08-31T18:31:00.004-05:00

As I review products (of my own) or ones sent to me. I'll post them here :)

Snacky Foods
Nature Valley Nut Clusters
Quaker Natural Granola

Dessert Foods
Pepperidge Farm Granola Cookies

About Me.

2009-08-30T16:57:00.011-05:00

So who am I?
That's a question i've been trying to answer myself! I've been stuck at a crossroads for a long time. Between who I used to be, and who I could be. To put it simply: My past consisted of disordered eating, messed up friendships/relationships, and bad influences. How did my disordered eating start? I believe it started when I pushed all of my friends out of my life. You see, they were doing drugs. Not the normal pot smoking of teenage years, but hard drugs. I wanted nothing to do with it. I have never done drugs, and it was such an unpleasant and unwanted environment. I also grew up with a disabled father. Don't get me wrong, I am not blaming anything on him or my friends for that matter. It was my constant need to control things. A need to control my environment, a need to control my days when everything seemed out of control. I have never admitted this until now; but I did have a problem with disordered eating. I ate less than 1400 calories a day (my RMR was 1500) and worked out endlessly. The gym became my best friend. I tried to play it off as an "accident" but i've come to realize I was only fooling myself. This summer I went to a doctors appointment and was about 10 pounds underweight. I was never diagnosed with anorexia because I didn't have a low enough weight. My doctor sent me to a nutritionist. I got everything back on the right track, I am back at a healthy weight, and things are going pretty good. I just made the decision to gain more weight.. to be healthier in the mid-range for "healthy BMI" rather than the lowest half. But I'm doing okay. I hope you continue to read, and follow me on my journey to healthiness and happiness, and I might throw some sarcasm into the mix, :)

My eating philosophy

2009-08-30T09:37:00.003-05:00

My eating philosophy now stems from a lot of things. I believe everything is good in moderation. I eat chocolate every day, and I have ice cream most days of the week. I eat it in moderate, healthy portions. You would never find me eating an entire carton of ice cream.. because i'd rather have a special treat now and then. My daily "healthy" meals are based on a lot of things. My nutritionist had me counting carb "choices". I know it was necessary, but I hated it. Most meals I shoot for 2 carbs, 2 proteins, 1 fruit, 1 veg, 1 dairy. It varies with most meals (i feel weird eating veggies with breakfast! unless its an omelette!).

I also really like intuitive eating. It is a eating style that you eat when you are hungry, and stop when you are full. Sound easy?! Well it is after awhile, I am still struggling with it. Basically you don't have "set" times to eat, or 3 meals 2 snacks. There is no counting and no measuring. You eat when your body PHYSIOLOGICALLY wants food not because of stress or boredom. You can find different hunger scales here.

Happy eating :)