weekend!

Aaaah :) I am soo happy that it is Saturday! This past week went by so slow! :( So you know how I mentioned that I ALWAYS eat the same breakfast?! Well, on Friday I mixed it up a bit!

WW english muffin, 1 TBSP peanut butter, yogurt + granola (you can't see it!)

It was good when I ate it.. but it did not keep me full AT ALL! I was so surprised! I used to eat this allll the time over the summer, but oatmeal is so much more filling!

I had to work last night, and I had pancakes for dinner! (sorry no pic, I was so hungry I forgot!)

This morning I had to volunteer at  "breakfast with santa" so they had eggs and toast there! I had a slice of toast with jam, and some eggs! I was STARVED when I got home, so I made a nice lunch!

WW Bread, turkey mayo + cheese PANINI! Kashi cheddar crackers! and string cheese :)  I DID NOT get this string cheese because it is "weight watchers" I got it because I had a 2 dollar off coupon. It has the same stats as the other one I get, just a diff. name :)

After lunch we ran to the grocery store, I was low on lots of stuff!! afterwards I had a typical snack :

This time I added H2H, you can't see it.. BUT ITS IN THERE :) and I had 1/2 of a english muffin- I was hungryyyy!

Tonight I am off to a friends house for her birthday. She's ordering pizza (not my favorite) so I'll have a mini dinner before, and have a piece or two once I get there :)

Have an AMAZING weekend!!!!!

Typical

BRR! It was FRIGID here today. Think like -15 windchills :( I was definitely bundled up today! hahaha. So you might wonder why I never post my breakfast? I have basically the same thing ever single day...

1/2 cup oatmeal, cinnamon, 1 TBSP peanut butter or homemade almond butter. I usually use toppings of a) Granola pictured today b) cereal bar c) honey sunshine d) bran vitamuffin.

I don't like eating cold cereal during the winter! I like something hot to warm me up!! :)

My after school snack is normally the same thing, too.

yogurt with quaker granola

If I mix it up I normally show you, :)

dinner tonight we had CHICKEN FAJITAS. Yesssss... chicken cooked with onions, red and green peppers!

With cheese and an apple (and unpictured glass of m-i-l-k)

What is my cookie of choice tonight?!

Just like the snowman one, but with sprinkles!

I am TOTALLY in the holiday spirit! I just wish it would be a TAD bit warmer!! :D

I'm off to do some studying, watch csi, take a bath (does anyone else take a bath anymore? I love them!) and go to bed!

Do you normally eat the same breakfasts every day? or mix it up?!

School

.....sucks! I deff. had school today, which was a MAJOR disappointment. I live right near Lake Michigan so all we got was sleet.. instead of snow!

I bet some of you are wondering what I am doing, based on what I mentioned here. I decided that I am going to get my BMI past the 18.5 benchmark. I am aiming for around 19-19.5. I am going to take this SLOWLY. Therefore I am not going to overstuff myself and be completely uncomfortable as happened in the past.  I wanted to remind all you that I am considered to have a healthy weight. But in my mind, I'd rather be over the benchmark than right at it. So, how exactly am I doing this?  When I originally met with my nutritionist she had me counting food groups. I liked the plan of eating healthy foods- just MORE of them, you know? So here's how it will go. I will eat my normal meals, but add more nutritious things to it (fats, proteins, carbs) so therefore, no counting calories. I already have a "treat" every day, but I will be eating a lot more dark chocolate daily- healthy fats & antioxidants. And you can't forget holiday cookies! ;)

So what was my dinner last night?

Whole wheat english muffins, broiled with tomatoes and cheese (2 OZ rather than 1), Alexia Fries, Un-pictured apple and milk(2%, fat, protein).  For maintenance I normally had to have one dairy at every meal, but I will be having 2 at most meals.

Dinner tonight:

2 oz WW Shell pasta, Marinara, 1 OZ cheese

HUGE APPLE! (my fav.)

And I've been digging into the cookie stash....

I already ate his nose, and a choco chip fell off! :( He was very delicious.

I will be having milk and cookies while watching LIFEEETIME!

Did anyone have a snow day today?!

....and what is your favorite type of holiday cookie?

I like the cookies pictured above, I love sugar cookies, chocolate chip, gingerbread, my nana makes AMAZING cinnamon sugar cookies- in the shape of snowflakes!!!

The one time..

I actually WANT it to snow.. it doesn't. We were supposed to get a major snowstorm tonight (meaning a snow day..) and we are only supposed to get sleet now! gaaaaaah. totally ruined my day. Anyways, anyone watch gossip girl last night?! INTENSE! I totally want Serena to end up with Nate!!! He's a hottie ;) So how did I spend my night last night?! Well of course, watching gossip girl and eating this lovely bowl:

A good old favorite. Skinny cow(hate the name) ice cream sandwich with some good ol' vanilla ice cream. Mashed and mixed together :) Just like cookies and cream! and then I CRASHED! I don't know why, but I was so exhausted. This morning I actually turned off my alarm and went back to sleep!  I haven't done that in FOREVER. I am totally praying (pray for me) that I have a snow day, then I can sleep all day! haha :)

This morning I was coooold! I had a bowl of oatmeal, like I do every day

1/2 cup oats, Kashi strawberry cereal bar, 2 TBSP peanut butter (mixed in)

up reaaaal close:

yummmmm :)

Well after that, I was off to school! I bring the same lunch almost every day.. so I see no need in taking a picture of it! I just got home like 30 minutes ago, and am currently eating..

1/2 cup cottage cheese

Kelloggs all bran garlic crackers!

Well, Im off to do some homework, do some type of snow dance, pray a little more, make dinner, and watch 90210! :)

Have a lovely day!

SNOW DAY!?!?!

I only wish.. It would seriously be my dream come true! tomorrow night we are supposed to get a lot of snow... (6+ inches) I will seriously do a snow dance or something! haha. I doubt we will have a snow day.. my school wouldn't even close for a nuclear war! (exaggerating, I know.) I haven't been up to much lately. Homework and lying around. 11 more days of high school!!!! I'm so excited! Last night I had my typical "breakfast for dinner" but I mixed it up a bit :)

Hope that isn't blurry. I had a tortilla (a big one, that's a dinner plate it is on..) with scrambled eggs & SHARP cheddar cheese! (my fav.) It was good. Eating wraps sometimes makes me angry! I always somehow rip the tortilla and everything falls out! oh well, that's what forks are for!

DID ANYONE WATCH DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES LAST NIGHT?!?!?! I cannot believe it! and I am soooo mad they didn't show next week's preview! I want to know who died! aaah. the suspense is building!!!

Tonight for dinner, I had another favorite! Wild Harvest Organic Margherita pizza!

This brand is one of the FEW organic brans that Jewel offers.. so I take advantage of it!

*if anyone is triggered by clothes sizes, weight, BMI, or stories.. please don't read below.*

For those of you who read my blog originally. You would know I have struggled with my weight.  Im about to get VERY personal.. but you know what?! I'm okay with it. I feel that people here would understand, and be helpful. Here it goes.   I am a current senior (i am saying this to give a point of reference).  My sophomore year of high school was quite the roller coaster. I was hanging out with the wrong crowd, and doing the wrong things. I was on the verge of depression, a long with other things. I went to the doctor and I was diagnosed with PMDD (premenstrual dysphoric disorder) My emotions were all over the place, but I realized it was around "my time of the month". I was put on yaz birth control(and still on it).  I started it around christmastime. It really helped all of my emotional and physical issues.  I pushed all of the negative influences, and negative people out of my life. Things were going great. Birth control can have two effects on people gain weight, or loose it. I was in the category of weight gain. I gained about 10-15 pounds. My cup size went up 2 sizes, and I was completely uncomfortable (keep in mind, I ate the same, and was still active. It was all because of the pill).  I became okay with it. I accepted myself for who I was.. because being myself was just enough. I still retained a couple close friends.. but one betrayed me. It was horrible, her and her friends were always calling me fat.. just to be mean (keep in mind, being 5'9 I only weighed around 140/145, which is completely healthy BTW). It really affected me. I just pushed it out of my mind.. Fast forward to mid-junior year. I decided to become a vegetarian, for animal rights reasons. Sound great?! keep reading... I started eating no meat, and incorporating more healthy foods. I began working out in moderation. I felt great, because I lost all the water weight that I gained. But I thought "why can't I do more?" I began restricting, only eating about 1400 calories a day ( my RMR at the time as 1500.. so I wasn't even eating enough to survive) and I was working out constantly. I saw it as a "lifestyle" change. I thought it was great. This went on from second semester junior year to mid-summer(around when my blog started.)  I went to my "pre school checkup" And I was underweight. I was shocked "how could I get so far?" I am not posting my lowest weight. But my BMI was 17.1  I was referred to a nutritionist. I saw her TWICE, and only twice. First, she had me on a meal plan ( I gained a lot of weight back after this appt.), and I went back two months later. At that point I had about 2-3 pounds to gain to be at 18.5 (lowest healthy choice)(and I gained it.).. She said I was "doing great" and whatever. I never got any other help in any respect. Never saw a therapist. Doctor never called. They assumed I could do it all on my own. And I did. As I said before, I was never diagnosed with a disorder. Which is why I think they didn't go further. I am over the degrading and the restricting, and I am focused on living life. I haven't had any distorted thoughts since "before" and I am happy to say that I have stayed with maintenance. The one last thing is, I haven't gained any weight then was last required.. My bmi is a 18.5-the lowest I could be while still being considered "Healthy". What triggered all of this? The pants I bought yesterday were TWO sizes smaller than I used to wear, and are still kinda big.  I am on the mindset right now that I need to gain a little more weight. How much? I don't know. Honestly, this is where I am looking for your advice. I hate the process of gaining weight, and constantly "stuffing my face". I am 95% sure its what I need to do. What is your opinion on this? If you were me, what would you do?

 I am sorry if I got to personal at all, but I have felt the need for a LONG time just to write everything down, and get everything out. Thank you for listening.

HOT

I have only been eating HOT food's lately. I am not ready for winter! It was such an unwelcomed surprise for my body. I have been freeeezing ever since the temp went below 30!!  Yesterday for lunch I had a grilled cheese (on the sandwich maker) and tomato soup!

Later in the afternoon my mom and I went to the mall! We needed to return some less than stellar black friday buys, and I needed new jeans.  Ever since I gained weight, I never bought new jeans! I just made the most out of what I had.. (when I lost weight I never really bought new jeans then either) but I was in desperate need of better fitting jeans. And I found them!! They fit awesome, and it makes me feel so much better :) We ate in the food court..

Have you ever tried subway's flatbread sandwiches?! They are SOO good.

I got it toasted with turkey, cheese, lettuce and green peppers!

and I ate half of my mom's steak fries! (sooo good....)

I've just been relaxing today nothing much to do.. and its nice to have time to yourself! I am running to Plato's closet with a friend later to sell my old jeans. I hope you ladies have a fabulous day!

If and of you gals gained weight (or lost it!) how long did you wait to treat yourself to new jeans?

Christmas Vacation.

If only... I've got two more weeks, and then I AM DONE! I cannot wait. I just have to get finished with papers, tests, and finals. Breathe in, Breathe out.  I was super busy last night. I had 2 tests to study for, and a paper to write! I am sorry for being AWOL.  I have been eating well though, of course.  Intense studying calls for amazing snacks to keep me sane!!!

Yesterday morning I started with something different ( I know, no oatmeal) In the cold/winter I always crave hot foods.. so cereal doesn't cut it.

Thomas whole wheat bagel, with peanut butter, of course!

I looove these bagel's! Its hard to find whole wheat new york style bagels (my favorite!!!)

I've been eating decent snacks, too.. :

Cottage Cheese w/ Jewel brand Honey Wheat pretzels!

When it gets cold outside, I CRAVE mac and cheese! Last night I had a mad craving for some.. but we had NOTHING not even a kraft box!!! so I created my own!

2 oz pasta shape of choice (i chose spiral.. my fav.)

2 LC cheese wedges

1/8 cup of milk.

Easiest and healthiest mac and cheese of my life!

Basically you cook the noodles. While the noodles are cooking, mush up the 2 wedges in a microwave safe bowl.. add the milk to the mixture, stir a little and micro for 30 secs. (you might hear popping, that's normal) and voila! you have a cheese sauce.  After the pasta is cooked and drained, add the sauce to the noodles and there's your dinner!

I used the regular LC not the light.  If you use the light you might have to microwave longer, because its harder to melt cheese with less fat!!!!

Another craving I have during cold weather is pancakes!!!!

I used Hungry Man wheat pancakes. I added cinnamon and DOUSED them in SF maple syrup! yummmmmm :) I love winter, it has the best food!

Well, I am off to go relax, read a book and GO TO SLEEP EARLY! have a lovely weekend!!!